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How deep is the lake
I might find out for my own sake
But is it deep enough or will it be in vain
Can the water really drown my pain
I shiver and feel the weakness deep in my bones
I feel the pain in my chest and throw some stones
I watch the rings as they grow and faint
I am as she makes me feel, just like foul paint
Useless
You feel sad and angry and I have grown tired of always being that reason
That's why I don't find this as treason
Because though I still remember
I can feel the promise burn my heart like ember
Yet, the temptation is so strong
What if I did it and you were wrong?
There are so many, many ways to end this pain
Maybe just some pills and then the train
But my dear ones, will you be alright
You may not be human, but I'll keep you in sight
I will keep guard over all of those to me nearest
And though the one who once stopped me, now made me do this, will still be my dearest
This is not goodbye
Though my life is a lie
I have still to much to accomplish
Too many promises to keep and finish
So because of you, my friends, I will stay
I will fight my life and all pain at home for another day
But if I don't find a way to end this soon
I will say my last goodbye and fly beyond the moon
I might find out for my own sake
But is it deep enough or will it be in vain
Can the water really drown my pain
I shiver and feel the weakness deep in my bones
I feel the pain in my chest and throw some stones
I watch the rings as they grow and faint
I am as she makes me feel, just like foul paint
Useless
You feel sad and angry and I have grown tired of always being that reason
That's why I don't find this as treason
Because though I still remember
I can feel the promise burn my heart like ember
Yet, the temptation is so strong
What if I did it and you were wrong?
There are so many, many ways to end this pain
Maybe just some pills and then the train
But my dear ones, will you be alright
You may not be human, but I'll keep you in sight
I will keep guard over all of those to me nearest
And though the one who once stopped me, now made me do this, will still be my dearest
This is not goodbye
Though my life is a lie
I have still to much to accomplish
Too many promises to keep and finish
So because of you, my friends, I will stay
I will fight my life and all pain at home for another day
But if I don't find a way to end this soon
I will say my last goodbye and fly beyond the moon
Just for the record: I am fine. I've just had so many argues with my mother lately. She is ill, which means she is constantly in pain, and there is just so much going on around right now that she can't help doing these things she does. Even if those things only includes nagging and complaining all the time, making it almost impossible for me to live at home any longer.
I once had a very dark period of my life, making me think about all sort of ways to end my life quick, painless and as humanly as possible for the sake of my mother and brothers. I told my mom about my thoughts, and she made me promise her that I would never end my life, which I did, if she promised me the same.
But now, that promise means nothing to me any longer. No matter what I do, how I do it, it is never enough.
Once again, I am fine. Don't worry. I just, I really needed to get this out of the system. It helps.
I once had a very dark period of my life, making me think about all sort of ways to end my life quick, painless and as humanly as possible for the sake of my mother and brothers. I told my mom about my thoughts, and she made me promise her that I would never end my life, which I did, if she promised me the same.
But now, that promise means nothing to me any longer. No matter what I do, how I do it, it is never enough.
Once again, I am fine. Don't worry. I just, I really needed to get this out of the system. It helps.
© 2012 - 2024 LamLArts
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Such a moving poem! I really hope you are feeling better now that you got the poem out, because it sounds so incredibly sad and I don't want you feeling that sad! 
I am here for you if you need me. 
I am here for you if you need me.